Monday, December 31, 2012

2012: blunders and body fat.

The End

I’m thinking about 2012 and I’m thinking about how much I’ve grown. But I’m also thinking of some stupid things I did and I’m thinking that those stupid things were only a couple of months ago. I think I’ve grown but only last summer I was obsessed with a boy who was a dead ringer for Charles Manson.

2012 was an interesting year – like every other year of my young adulthood, there is so rarely a dull moment and, when there is, I usually do something ridiculous to liven things up a bit. My 2012 began with kissing my friend out of boredom and spiralled out of control sometime in late February, early March. The first half of 2012 was spent doing gay things and drinking wine with Niall and Francis. 2012 was bagels and carbs and getting make-up lessons from drag queens and sex advice from virgins. In the latter half of 2012, I sold strawberries by the side of the road, turned 21, temporarily emigrated to Scotland, fell in love and came home with enough clothes to last me until next Christmas, and some extra weight around the belly that will keep me warm until spring.

2012 is drawing to a close and I’m happy – somehow. I’d like to say that I was happy in 2012, that I finally became comfortable with myself, that I never got depressed, that I never acted out, and I never self-destructed. 2012 wasn’t perfect but I had fun. I met wonderful people and became better acquainted with wonderful people.

I have high hopes for 2013. This year I’ll be returning to proper classes at UL, I’m motivated to drop a dress size and maintain it by this time next year, my blog is becoming ever more productive, and I’m hoping to procure a job in the Big Smoke during the summer. Things are looking up.

Hope you all have a fab 2013!


Sunday, December 30, 2012

i am moody even at christmas.

It’s 8 o’clock on New Year’s Eve eve and in a rare bout of OCD, I’m updating my iTunes with all the appropriate album artwork. I’m on M now with Mr Big, MGMT, and Modest Mouse. My hair is piled on top of my head and I’m trying to convince myself that I’m not coming down with a cold and that I am not the most boring person in the world. (I am wrong on both counts.)

Anyway, I’m just glad the whole Christmas thing is over. Christmas depresses me. I like presents and I like food but I don’t like that it’s the same ritual every year – buying things for people you don’t particularly like and pretending that we’re not all eventually going to die. Or maybe I’m just becoming cynical in my old age.

In any case, I’d be a liar if I said I didn’t jump on the bandwagon of consumerism when there’s sales on and I have some extra cash. Maybe that’s the depressing part though – I buy things and then I remember that we’re all going to die so what’s the point? Or maybe I’m in a bad mood because my immune system is down and out and I miss my boyfriend.

Anyway, in the spirit of post-Christmas sales, I might as well tell you about all the crap I bought and was given recently:

Polyvore 29.12.12

As well as the above, I bought a pretty dress from Penneys, a vintage-style wooden box for the multitude of nail polishes I own, some cute bunting from Urban Outfitters, and Penneys’ cheap and cheerful take on the gold watch – €6 and it’ll probably turn my arm green but hey!

All that and I’m still on the hunt for a chunky, woolly, cream snood. Any leads? Comment below.

So what did you Materials Girls get for Chrimbo? Any plans for New Year’s Eve? My plans involve cleaning my room and dumping some of the rubbish I accumulated during 2012.

Hope you all have a lovely 2013. At least we’re not dead yet!


P.S. This journey through iTunes is making me very nostalgic. I’m listening to Maximo Park circa 2005. Hello, fourteen-year-old Emma! (I still know every word.)